Flawless

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I have a teeny tiny problem with my temper.

Those that know me in real life are probably shaking their heads and thinking, “YOU?  The woman who is so laid back it’s sometimes rumored she has no pulse?  Really?”

But those of you who REALLY know me quite well (ahem, mom, hubby and so forth) have witnessed my wrath firsthand.  It’s not pretty.

I am one of those people who wears my feelings close to my vest.  I suppose part of it is so that I will be accepted by others, part of it is so that I don’t rock the boat.  Things stay bottled up, pushed way, way down until…

BAM!

I pop.

Not a healthy way to deal with anger I am sure.  I have been trying for years and I think I have made some progress (Honey?).  Don’t get me wrong, I am not screaming obscenities and throwing plates at people’s heads, but I just get FURIOUS.  Usually when I get that mad I can’t even speak or express my feelings without crying, which makes me feel ridiculous too.

The good news is that this in my one flaw.  Really.  I SWEAR.

Bad news?  Well, I see myself in my daughter.

She is a pleaser.  A sweet rule follower, not unlike me…until…she can’t supress those feelings anymore and they come shooting out like a volcano.  It’s quite a sight to see, actually.  You never know what may set her off since it’s usually not related to the particular event, rather she has reached her breaking point.  I have never seen such venom spewing from a 3 year old before.  The sheer volume of her primal screams and the thrashing and kicking.  It’s awful.

I am trying to teach her how to handle herself in a more, um, civilized fashion.  I’ll let you know how it works out.

Until then, look at this beauty and tell me she’s capable of that sort of behavior. 

  Wait a minute…I see something

But, I’m pretty sure it’s her one flaw.

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